Monday, July 16, 2012
I'm not looking forward to it. My index finger has seemed to heal properly, but if I bump it even slightly I get a sensation not unlike you get when you bump your "crazy bone" in your elbow.
My Facebook Friends already know what happened last Tuesday morning....a tin can lid collided with my finger, forcefully. It was shockingly deep, lots of blood....well, I'll stop there. I'm sure you don't want to hear it and I don't care to relive it. Once home from the emergency room I was able to piece together what happened. A rag had fallen down behind the garbage can that comes out on a rail when you open the cabinet door under the sink. I was in a hurry, doing two things at once (as is my nature, not because I lack time) and I used my knee to close the door. But because of the rag, the can bounced back causing the door to hit my hand which was holding the sharp lid.
Of course, (as is also my nature) I need to reflect on this episode in my life to garner as much from it as I can. It is costing us who knows how many hundreds of dollars since I have such a large deductible on my medical insurance. I'm unable to type very fast since I can't use that finger and you knows how long before that crazy bone sensation goes away. I missed a week at the Fitness Center since I came down with a 102 temperature the next day and I thought it best to save my energy for healing. I can't work in my garden for fear of pulling my wound apart. There are various other activities I'm cautious about, too. So you see, I've got to get my time and money's worth out of this experience!
My immediate thought at the time was that I need to be more deliberate in my actions--slow down and do one movement at a time. I had even been given a "warning" through a story earlier that morning in Alan Cohen's book. The cost to learn his lesson, however, was merely a pushed out screen on his door. And now that I'm writing about it, I realize the black snake in the grass a few days before was another warning. I was walking out to the clothesline looking everywhere around me except in front of me when I almost crossed the snake's path. Paying attention is part of being deliberate. Perhaps by the time my nerve endings reattach and stop giving me a shock I'll have finally learned this lesson because, believe me, I am paying very close attention to what comes near my hand and making deliberate movements with it.
This makes me think of my relationships--with God and with people. Am I paying attention and relating to them in a deliberate, conscious way? Or do I try to do two things at once? Do I give my full attention to my alone-time with God? Do I wait in expectation to hear His thoughts to my prayers? And when I'm talking to someone on the phone or in person, am I paying attention not only to what they say but how they say it? Do I hear the silence between the lines, as well?
Yes, there is much I can learn from my little bit of trauma. I hope I've learned it well, because it is not one I care to repeat!
Father, thank you that it wasn't worse--You do know, after all, what I can handle. May I learn the intended lesson(s) well. You know how I hate having to backtrack to get anywhere (that's my nature, too).
P.S. My husband has purchased me one of those can openers that fold over the edge of the lid so it is no longer sharp. Now, what to do about the knives...and my garden clippers....while I'm still learning this lesson?
Link to scripture: http://bible.cc/isaiah/28-23.htm
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